******************************************** Additional Text for the 09/17/04 Alumni Sandstorm ******************************************** >>From: Lonnie Draper ('70) Dan Werry, Scott Werry, Ed Foss, Al Garcia, my brother and I are taking part in the Billie Jane Lampson - Tri City Cancer Center Golf Tournament this coming Monday. We're getting together for Danny Heidelberg, Diesel. We are Team Diesel. Remembering Danny, George Dana, Sam Dossett, Jim Foss and many, many others. I'm remembering someone else, but most people don't know her. I'm writing this for two reasons. First, I need to communicate what I know of Kristi Heartz in her very short time at Richland High School. I need to tell you what she did; what kind of person she was. Secondly, I am writing now because I failed to finish the assignment when I was first asked. Some of my students asked that I write a dedication for Kristi to be included in their class yearbook. I wrote maybe twenty or thirty drafts before telling them to find someone much less bitter. I really couldn't find it in me to focus on her life. I was still overwhelmed by her death. I admit that I'm ashamed of myself. This should have been said long ago. So here is the brief story as I know it of a little girl who came to Richland and left us too soon. I know that I won't be able to say it as well as I would like, but here is my best effort. I know Kristi would accept that. I first met Kristi when she walked into the Advanced Placement American Lit class as a junior. She had transferred from North Carolina, I think Raleigh. She was intelligent and she was mad. She had gone through registration and had decided to sign up for the school newspaper. The problem was there was no school newspaper. The Sandstorm had been discontinued sometime in the late 1970s. Kristi couldn't believe that a high school could exist in 1986 and not have a school paper. She was mad and she decided to push the issue. We could probably piece together the whole picture of what happened by others telling their part in it, but I know enough to establish the framework. She went to the counselors; she went to the administration; she went to anyone who would listen. She got the, "It's too late for this year." She got the, "Why don't you work on the yearbook." She got the attention of everyone because she wouldn't let it die. I don't remember the time frame, but it wasn't too long before she came to me with the news that if she found a faculty advisor, she could assemble a staff to issue a paper as a club activity after school. She asked me to be the advisor. I did my best advising. I advised her to get someone who would be conservative enough to keep everybody out of trouble. She got Mrs. Robin Morris, who was gracious enough to accept the work and responsibility that went with basically starting a paper from scratch. They didn't call it the Sandstorm, but that is what it was. During Christmas break that year, Kristi was diagnosed with Hodgkin's disease. There was Seattle. There was Kadlec. There was chemo. There was radiation. There was being home too sick to come to school. There was pain and sorrow, but there was also laughter. Two stories will tell you something about her. Almost twenty years later, these are really the only two specific moments that I can remember vividly. They were so different, but they must have been powerful, at least to me, to stand out after all these years. When she came home from Seattle, she spent some time at Kadlec Hospital. I would visit with her there. Most of the time, it was just to give her some magazines or tell her some lies or stories about school. Just visiting. One day, I got to the hospital and I didn't have anything for her, so I stopped in the little gift shop. Nothing really was appropriate or cool, but hanging up on the wall was a quilted, granny robe with a floral design. It was perfect - if you were 85 years old. So I bought it. When I got to her room, she was so happy to see me. I told her, "Kristi, you're gonna to be feeling better now and you'll be able to get out of this room and take some walks around the hospital. I wanted you to look good, so I got this for you. I really hope you like it." It was BS only the way a true BSer can say it. She pulled the robe from the bag and looked at it. Without looking up, she started her thank you. "Oh, thank you, Mr. Draper, it's…" and then she looked up, and when she saw my eyes, she just started laughing so hard. We laughed and laughed; we hung it on the door, and every so often, we would see it and laugh till we cried. Not much later, Kristi's grandmother came in. As soon as she saw the robe, she started on about what a beautiful robe it was, and no sooner were the words out of her mouth than both Kristi and I were laughing uncontrollably. It was a perfect robe for a granny, but for a seventeen year old, it was perfect for comedy. The other story is not funny. It was near the end of her time in Richland, but I didn't know that. I had stopped by to see her at home. She hadn't been to school in a few days. Her dad and mom were always so wonderful. I talked with everybody for a while and got ready to leave. Kristi and I were on the front porch. I can't remember exactly what I said, but it included, "…when you get better,..." And she looked into my eyes and said, "Mr. Draper, I'm not going to get better. I'm going to die." I said, "No, honey, you're not going to die." And she said, "Yes I am. You need to accept it." We visited after that, of course, until they moved back to Carolina so Kristi could spend her last days around her grandparents. We never talked about living or dying. We just had fun when she felt good, and chatted when she was tired. She passed away just before the holidays of what would have been her senior year, about one year after she was diagnosed. So a seventeen year old honor student had looked me in the eye and told me to accept the fact that she was going to die. I did. But for a long time I could not accept the injustice of it. I could not accept anything about it beyond the fact that it happened. So I could not write a dedication that anyone should be subjected to. What I really want every one to know is that she was a gift to us for a short time. The Sandstorm would have been restarted in time, but those of you who were on the Sandstorm staff in 1988, 1989, 1990, 1991 and who knows how much longer, you were there ONLY because one little girl made it so. I had hoped that some day Richland High School would send her parents a diploma or that we would give an award that bears her name to a Sandstorm staff member. I just wanted you all to know that she was here and she made a difference. So here is the legacy of Kristi Heartz. She came to Richland High School and left it better than she found it. Like Dan, and George, and Jim, and Sam and many others came and left us better. We should all have such a legacy. So when you make any donations to St. Jude's Hospital or the Tri City Cancer Center, once in a while make one in the name of Kristi or George or Sam or Dan or Jim or someone who made this world better and would have made it more so if given the time. ********************************************